I’ve done morning pages 5 out of the last 12 days. Not only was the thanks giving weekend busy, but I also got sick. So I took a break from the program and restarted it last Tuesday. The days I did my pages were the most natural I’ve experienced… probably ever. I’ve found a morning routine that works well for me and the pages fit into it naturally (but it’s sort of hard to stick to when spending the morning on the bathroom floor ;). The best part of taking the break was how easy it was for me to get back up in the horse. I’ve skipped pages before and the longer I was away from them the longer it took for me to get back in the habit. This time I thought about skipping them but then something like the angel on my shoulder said oh, what’s the big deal… just write them, and I did and it kicked started my momentum. I will definitely continue to write my pages. I will not feel guilty if I miss a day or two, won’t feel like I have lost all of the ground I’ve covered. I will open my journal and lift my pen and keep my attention on what can be done right here and now.
No formal artist date this week, but something struck me in this weeks essays. Cameron writes that life is intended to be an artist date, and I feel like I’ve begun to live to this idea. These days I’m struck by the beauty all around me and I allow myself to stop and drink it in at every turn. I’ll sit on the front stairs and watch the sunset with a cup of good coffee. I’ll replay a song that moves me to tears two or three times. I’ll randomly start singing while washing dished or sweeping the floor. I understand the importance of taking time to do special things for ones self and do intend to treat myself to things that pique my interest. I also intend to live in the moment and bask in the wonder that presents it self to me on a daily basis.
I continue to notice the universe handing me the help I ask for. The most notable example of this came after a conversation I had with my husband. I currently don’t have a job. I’ve been looking for work, but nothing from the applications I’ve made over the last six months. Over the thanks giving weekend I told my husband about the disappointment and embarrassment this has caused me. We talked about it and we both think that the fact that I’ve heard nothing might have something to do with the fact that the perfect situation was out there waiting to be discovered. I’ve applied for a handful of jobs I would really love and a whole bunch more that I’m sure I would be OK with but wouldn’t love. I know that if I was given an offer I would take it… even if it wasn’t my dream job. Maybe the universe is doing me a favor in keeping me from taking a job that wouldn’t be putting my skills and talents to work. Then, last week, a position became available with an organization I would LOVE to work for doing a job I know I would excel at and would challenge me. SO I’ve applied, it’s only been a few days, and even if I don’t get it I am no longer desperate about never finding a job I like… I will hang in there and I will find it.
In week eleven Cameron suggests artists take up a sport. I believe I’ve found mine. I’ve been practicing yoga and kick boxing in concert. I’ve never before found an exercise routine that I can stick to but everything about this routine suits me and excites me to practice. It challenges my flexibility and I can feel the way its building strength and I can let everything fall away as I focus on keeping good form during every move. I’m very proud of my dedication and enjoy all of the benefits I’m seeing.
I also want to say that I am so happy to of had the support and feed back of this community during my artistic journey. Thank you all for sharing you r progress along the Artist’s way, your insights have helped to open my mind. And thank you for sharing your support and advice. Thank you for helping me to experience the miracle of artists sharing with one another!
Congrats on finishing! I'm so glad you found it so rewarding. And I'll keep my fingers crossed for you on the job search.
I plan on getting back up on the horse next week after a short break from NaNo. But I wanted to say thanks for all the encouraging words you've given me over the weeks. I hope you'll still pop by the community to say hi!
I’m definitely keeping this community on my friends list.
Thank you for your encouragement as well. I was excited to start the program in and of itself, and I’m sure that I wouldn’t’ have gotten what I did out if it were it not for this opportunity to support and be supported.
You are doing well. I'm starting the job search myself and I know how it affect self esteem. You are bang on though, the right position is out there for you. Hang in there and don't lose faith. You've got the right attitude about life and that will trickle down into everything you do. Yoga and kick boxing? Creates an interesting mental image. Keep on with everything! We are all in this together.
you sound very contented, well done. Thanks for your inspiring words, good luck on the job search, sometimes I feel it is a full time job looking for the right job, you have to put in the hard yards to work out what you would like to do and what is actually available.
ps you have almost convinced me to try kick boxing!!!
thank you too! I truly admire how, as a mother, you have still taken time to focus on yourself.
It is so true about the job search, and the worst part for me is trying not to feel guilty when I take a break.
You should try kickboxing… I’ve had a neutral stance on it and found it to be great fun. I start giggling in the middle of my practice, I hope that doesn’t’ point to some sort of character flaw.
I’m not sure if anyone is starting a 2007 group… but I don’t think this group is going anywhere. I think there are a lot of people who are half way thru (many people took a break during November to participate in NaNoWriMo) and many of the people who have completed the Artist’s Way still check in here. SO if you don’t find any ’07 communities by all means post your progress here ;)